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Hello my lovely lads and ladies! Guess what?

I GOT A NEW BLOG FOLLOWER TODAY!

Since this is one of the rare occasions where I do not have adequate words to express my emotions, here is a gif of how I feel:

I've actually gained three-COUNT IT, THREE!-new followers since the end of summer. Perhaps I'm just vain and I shouldn't be writing an entire post about this, but thank you to:

1. Alli Weller
2. Missy-Tannenbaum
3. Manya Sinha

Thanks you guys for joining my blog, and another thank you for all of my readers who've stuck around over the past year :)

EDIT: I just realized how incredibly silly I sound freaking out over gaining 3 followers. Oh well, there's no point in deleting this post now, is there?

Popping in for approximately 56 seconds

Sorry for the background noise--I forgot to turn off the t.v.

Well Dang

It's just about midnight, and I'm still awake. I want to sleep, but I just can't. At least this week is only going to be three days long because of Thanksgiving. That'll give me something to look forward to tomorrow when I'm trying not to fall asleep in class.

I revamped my blog yet again tonight, do you like it? I'm pretty fond of the overall look, but I'm still trying to figure out how I can make it so the options for my poll are visible. That has alluded me thus far. Fingers crossed I'll be able to figure it out.

In other news I recently finished watching "The Secret Life of the American Teenager" season 1 on Netflix. The show is better than I thought it would be, but I do have a few issues with it. For starters, it really bothers me how all the kids are running around saying "I love you" willy-nilly. It's almost like they don't know what that word means. Perhaps it's just my personal opinion coming into play, but I think they use it a little bit too frivolously. Issue number 2 is that the main character's boyfriend, Ben, needs to BACK UP. Ben isn't even the father of the baby, yet he gets mad when Amy (his pregnant girlfriend), says that she is going to get an abortion. After all of her friends talk her out of that, she decides to give it up for adoption, which makes everyone flip out yet again. This upsets me because it is Amy's baby, her body, and her decision what happens to her child. Spoiler alert for any of you who haven't seen the series, but Amy keeps the baby. And she lets her younger sister name him. He ends up with the name John, which leads me to the 3rd issue: I WAITED 23 EPISODES AND THE BEST YOU COULD COME UP WITH IS JOHN?!?! I got a little bit mad when I found out the baby's name, but whatever. I'm debating whether or not it'll be worth it to watch the other 4 seasons of the show...

Goodnight, blog readers, I hope you get more sleep than I do ;)

xxx

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GUESS WHO HAS A NEW CAMERA?!?!?!?!?

Just wait, I'll be back to posting random blogs and photos of myself in no time ;) 

Quick, someone send help it's the middle of the night and I think I'm gonna be sick

Update: It is no longer the middle of the night. I ended up being awake from 1 am to 5 am :( I will spare you all the details of what is going on, but let's just say that my diet of Tostitos and Target brand fruit snacks have not been kind to me. 

:)

Today I went to Poetry Club for the first time this school year. Last year I was a regular club attendee, and this year I guess I just dropped the ball. Part of the problem is because I am very insecure about my poetry writing skills, and I never really felt like I was worthy to be a club member. Over the summer I basically gave up writing all together. It seems all I'm good for is writing meaningless blog posts, since that's the only thing I've done consistently over the past year or so. That doesn't bother me much, but some of the kids at the club are so good that I can't help but feel inferior.

Wednesday Worries Plus a Folder Filter

I just feel like writing something right now...

I spent the past hour working on a beaded bracelet, and I realized that the string I cut was way too short, so I ended up taking it all apart to perhaps work on another day. I'm sad because what I actually finished looked quite nice.

Also, I have to swim tomorrow morning first period. I hate it, because I get cold and tired and I never really recover during the rest of the day. I would just sit out, but I've already sat out of probably more than five classes so far this semester. And thinking about having to swim just makes me sad.

I've been sad a lot more recently. It's kind of strange, because I was doing so well over the summer. I don't know if my anxiety is as bad as it was last year when I started blogging, but I think in some ways it has gotten worse. I get this weightless feeling when I'm at school, like I'm filled with air. It makes me very dizzy, and it's scary. When this happens my therapist wants me to "center myself", but it's hard to do because I usually can't breathe when it gets bad, and I just start to freak out. And I still haven't been able to eat much. Whenever I try to I just get nauseous. Come to think of it, not eating much probably contributes to the dizziness.

On the bright side, we're learning a new verb tense in Spanish class (present perfect). I'm really excited to be learning something new because we've spent the past 8 months or so working on the past tense, which gets old really fast. I love speaking Spanish, and I wish the class was faster paced.

If you actually read this post, here's a gold start for you:

Look how masculine it is.

EDIT: I decided to do a folder filter with this post as well because I haven't done one of those in over half a year.

I think I used this in a Spanish project once because it was really creepy looking. 

This is probably one of my favorite lines from Homestuck, by far.*

*It comes in a close second behind "Boy I said make haste on the narrow catwalk!".

Fun Tunes Tuesday Reboot

Happy Sunday! As I am sure none of you noticed, I have taken down a majority of the posts in my Fun Tunes Tuesday series. Don't fret, I haven't deleted the posts completely, just reverted them to drafts. My reason for doing this is because I feel like my ukulele skills have improved tremendously since then, and seeing those videos on my blog just makes me unhappy. I've kept up all of my non-musical vlogs, and I think one or two songs have survived the cut. Sorry if you're disappointed with me, but this is something I've wanted to do for awhile now. I hope I can upload some new songs in the near future, and I can restart the Fun Tunes Tuesday series. My camera is still broken, though, so I have no idea how soon I'll be able to upload a video.

If you go through my "vlog" tag I think you can find my remaining vlogs/music videos. 

No promises if all the videos will work, though, because not all of them are uploaded to youtube, and the blogspot video player is shotty at best. 

:D

Yesterday I was competing at a baton competition ALL day. I arrived at the arena around 9 am and wasn't out of there until 4 pm. I got 2nd place in all of the individual events I competed in, which is actually pretty good! I mean, getting first place would have rocked, but I'm still satisfied. I'm actually surprised that I managed to do so well, especially considering how my 2-baton routine went. As I'm sure you've gathered, 2-baton routines are just like doing a regular routine, but you're using 2 batons rather than one. This also means that it's easier to drop more and lose focus, which is exactly what happened to me yesterday. The routine itself was okay, but my ending was a total train wreck. To end my 2-baton, I do one "big" trick to leave things off on a good note. At least, that's what it is SUPPOSED to do. I ended up losing control of both batons and they flew in completely opposite directions. Here is a diagram of what happened:

If you can't read all the words, click the picture to enlarge. Also note how there are no batons in my hands.

Here is an accurate visual representation of what took place yesterday. I completely messed up the trick, and one baton ended up next to the judge's table and the other ended up in a completely different lane that someone else was competing in. Because of this reason, I'm really confused as to why I got 2nd place. Oh well, I'm not gonna complain ;) 

This Isn't Happening.

GUYS.

I just may have gotten an A on my math quiz.

I think I'll find out the results on Monday. I'm scared/excited.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.