Halloween, Amongst Other Things

My Mirror Speaks by Death Cab for Cutie is actually a really spectacular song, don't even deny it.

Anyway, HAPPY HALLOWEEN! I actually don't care that much about Halloween personally, but I do think it is a pretty fun holiday. It adds something a little different to the drudgery of high school. I mean, I guess I'm excited to go to school today. I hope I plan a SUPER FABULOUS Halloween outfit, but no promises on that yet :( I woke up at, like, 4:45 and I was starving, so I ate some Cap'n'Crunch and I guess I'm just feeling inspired right now.

If I do have on a cute outfit, I'll post an outfit-of-the-day picture. I've secretly always wanted to do that </////3 

FFFFFFF-riday

Yesterday was really good then really bad. Like, the last two hours of the day were really bad. I know I shouldn't stay up until midnight but I did anyway because I'm a rebel who makes decisions that fuck up her sleep pattern. So cool, I know.

Around 11:30 I checked my grades online because the quarter just started and teachers are putting preliminary grades in. I have a C+ in precalc and an F in physics. The C+ in precalc doesn't bother me that much because I'm always destined to be below average in math classes. But Physics?? I had an A last quarter, and now I have an F. We started our motion unit a few weeks ago. I don't understand it. When we took the motion pretest I scored a 5/22. A month later we took the mid term. I got a 9/22. So, an increase of 4 points?

I have Physics first mod today and I am just hoping that I don't cry. If I do, it'd be more from embarrassment than anything else. And last night when I checked my grades I was talking to someone online who I already am on edge with and I ended up taking out some of my negative emotions on him. And of course he said I wasn't being mean but I felt so awful. I still do. I feel like I'm constantly letting out negative emotions then trying to reconcile. I'm not going to pretend I'm perfect.

Happy Friday.

butt kissin 2k13

I'm going to see my physical therapist today for the first time in a few months. Then I have work. I'm excited to go to work.

Right now I'm sitting in the dark in a classroom, hiding out in the back. I hate eating lunch in the cafeteria, so on some days where I have lunches longer than 20 minutes I'll come hole up. I think the current class is watching a movie. I don't know I don't really care either haha.

i haven't been outside since this morning but from what i've seen from windows it looks gorgeous out. Not, "I can go out in shorts and a tee-shirt" gorgeous, but a simpler and more clean gorgeousness. I don't know why it seems more clean. Maybe it's how sharp the air feels against my cheeks when I'm out walking in the fall. I dunno, I just love the fall. My birthday is November 21, and Thanksgiving is around the same time, and I just love the weather in general.

Can you tell I'm not focused? I'm listening to music and I think I'm paying more attention to it than I am to writing. My fingers are just kinda doin there own thing over here.

in Latin class we're learning about the three Punic Wars. I find it so interesting and I really empathize with Hannibal. He won every single battle against the Romans, up until the very last one. I don't understand why I can relate so much to that, but I do. I'm certainly not feeling defeated by any means in life. I just couldn't help but feel a little upset by the end of the reading we did. Hannibal was just fulfilling what he swore to his father he would do.

not to mention the Romans were playing some fucking dirty tactics. When Hannibal's brother (can't remember how to spell his name) began to send reinforcements to Hannibal camped in Italy, the Romans apprehended him, killed him, and cut off his head. And to put the icing on the cake, the Romans threw the head into Hannibal's camp to let him know his brother was dead. How messed up is that.

My blog posts must be such a pain to read lately. Absolutely no relevance or sensical order at all. I generally don't spend too much time on them anymore. Just here to document a few miscellaneous thoughts and write down how I feel.

go listen to the song Bruises  by Chairlift

such a great song

In Review

I think about this past summer and I get filled with a happy and glowing feeling. Late nights outside at work and bright mornings baton twirling with my friends.

i'll probably add more later. this is titled "In Review", after all. 

This morning I've been cuddling on the couch with my adorable dog Daisy Mae and putting inappropriate song lyrics into google translate and then listening to the translation. Call me immature but it helps me get by. Not to mention my life is only more complete now that I know what it would have sounded like if an ancient Roman ever wanted to say, "My pussy tastes like Pepsi-Cola".

I wanted to put a picture of Daisy right here but I don't have any quality files on hand. Here is an alternate photo of Seijuro Mikoshiba from hot summer anime Free!

LOOK AT THIS FRICKIN CUTIE!!

In about half an hour, at 10, I'm going out to visit my grandparents and deliver some groceries to them. Then at 11:30 my friend Lauren and I are meeting at the mall for EXTREME FRIENDSHIP ACTIVITIES. I'm about 5'9" and Lauren is almost a foot shorter than me and when we get together things get out of hand in all the best ways. We just bounce off each other really well, I suppose. In math class we have assigned seating, and we sit by each other most days of the week. Our math teacher has yet to rearrange out spots, which is surprising due to how many times we've gotten scolded for talking and laughing during class. 

After the mall I have baton practice at 5 pm. Hopefully I won't be too tired from walking around the mall. I'm going to try and get a quick nap in before I have to drive to practice. 

All in all, things are shaping up already to be a pretty great day. I was hoping to hang out with one of my friends from work tonight, but he has to work, unfortunately. We were going to go to Red Mango yesterday, but some stuff came up and we couldn't. But that's the past. I'm keeping my sights set on what is sure to be a superb saturday. 

x

no me digas

De pronto anoche el chico que estoy colado por,  me invitó a una cita. Bueno, no es una cita romántica, él dijo que quería pasar el rato... Iremos a comer helado, yo creo. Mi vida es tan extraña pero es normal al mismo tiempo. No sé si eso es claro ;p

^Escribí eso ayer, así, fue dos noches desde él me invitó. Él estaba en mi sueño anoche. No sé como sentirme.

También anoche mi madre y yo fuimos a nuestra iglesia para practicar manejando un carro de cambio manual. El carro es de mi padre, y gracias a Dios que él no estaba presento. Estoy yo lo peor conductora! Según mi madre, " yo quemé goma". Pienso que nos iremos a la iglesia otra vez esta mañana.

Denme suerte, porfa ;p

Ojalá que puedan leer español. Quería que escribir en español, pero yo no sé porque