another found poem

i listened to a bunch of music a couple nights ago and wrote a found poem with some of the lyrics bc I'm a gay ass nerd

Deep inside me the color's all I see.

Denominations

Our indignation

Take your time, don't hurry,

can't you see I'm nervous, so please

Close your eyes and I'll kiss you

But I find it hard to love you

Lying in your attic

Suicide in your arms

To lick your heart

this is the only part of it that's actually good enough to post haha. here's the list of the music i used for the whole thing, so not all these songs may apply to what i have shared here:

i’m looking through you the beatles

clark gable the postal service

without you lana del rey

start of something voxtrot 

my mirror speaks death cab for cutie

hard to explain the strokes

indigo tom milsom

girl that you love panic! at the disco

nowhere man the beatles

seaside the kooks

twin size mattress the front bottoms

zorbing stornoway

arms tonite mother mother

scar tissue red hot chili peppers

it's not a good poem but i like it anyway it has character. i have to work every night this weekend, which kinda sucks but at least i'm making money holllllla. and I got a B on the math TEST that i took today which i was positive i would fail. Pleasant surprises are always nice :) I worked so hard for that grade, too. It was all me. 

look at this cute photo i uploaded to instagram the same night i wrote the shit poem. i like feeling cute ^-^

not to mention how modest my outfit is i really rather like it. a weird sort of empowerment by not showing my neck i guess. i haven't been doing that in a lot of my youtube videos lately, i've noticed a trend. 

in conclusion:

i'm quite exhausted, but keeping a positive attitude is key to being the best i can be. 

piercings

Molly and I hung out today after school because she's on spring break. we got our nails done at some place by her house and it was so utterly relaxing they massaged my hands and everything <3 We have a baton competition tomorrow which I'm pretty excited for.

Also tonight i went with molly as she got her cartilage pierced and I'm the first to say how insanely envious i am!! it looks great on her, and i've wanted my cartilage pierced foreverrrr. I can't wait until I'm 18 this November and I can sign off on all the paperwork myself and my parents can't stop me from doing what I want to my body. that sounds harsh haha, but I just want to have piercings and let's just say my mom isn't really wild about them.

Currently I'd like:
-Cartilage
-Naval
-Nose
-Maybe VERRY tiny plugs someday
-basically just all the ear piercings my friend liz has at work. she's 19 and has so many and i am so impressed with them they look gorgeous. 

Summary 03/15/14

Tonight was pretty nice!

I woke up fairly early and cleaned all the dishes in our house because the dishwasher is broken and I LOVE CLEANING DISHES IT'S SO RELAXING. Then dad let me take out his stick-shift for awhile and I drove through mainly side streets because it's been awhile but I did spend some time on main roads. I also had a little brunch at Panera while out driving.

Then I stayed home until about 4, doing homework and napping on and off. By 3:30 I had to get out of the house again, though. So I drove to Starbucks and finished my homework there. I'm also learning to speak Hindi, and I'm starting by learning the Devanagari alphabet. It's a lot of work but it's a great challenge and so much fun!! I stayed at Starbucks for close to two hours when I messaged a coworker of mine seeing if he was free to chill. We met at Taco Bell around 6 and stayed there until 7. He's a rather nice guy, and in college. It was super fun to just relax with a friend and joke around and tell funny stories.

What really sticks out in my mind though is at 7 we decided to go and we were going to go to the camping supply store like a block away. It was so gorgeous- we walked and the sky was starting to turn gray and it got a little windy as we walked but I felt alive. Turns out the store closes at 6 on saturdays, so we had to turn around and go back. We didn't want to go back inside Taco Bell though, so we went our separate ways. Something about that was just so nice.

I don't have many friends, but the ones I do have are truly a blessing.

xo

शुभ रात्री औरफिर मिलेंगे !

Also!! Check out this adorable pic of me and my two best friends at baton. These girls always have my back <3 (L to R: Me, Courtney, Molly). We had rubber ducks cause why not. 

considering rejoining poetry club this year for the bouts that are coming up.

competing is super fun and i have a poem i would like to share but i dunno. i'm still pretty swamped with work and school but i guess we'll see how things work out. my friend renee keeps telling me to come back lol

tomorrow's a half day but i'm wearing my favorite dress anyway because i love myself

x

too good for you

Art from earlier this year on a night where music was making me a good kind of inspired anxious and i could feel it in my bones. 

i didn't have to work tonight and so i slept for a nice long while then woke up around 6:30 and had a bowl of ice cream for dinner while i did some homework then proceeded to chill. around 9 i saw my girl molly sub tweeting the hell out of her ex on twitter so i picked up some burger king and went to her house. we watched vines for a little over an hour and her mom gave me a slice of cake that I kept dropping out of my mouth because i was laughing so hard. 

i love my friends. i really only have like 2 or 3 close friends but they are just some of the greatest people you could hope to meet. 

i reread of mice and men last week and i cried like a lil bitch. that book never fails to hit home with me. now we're reading catcher in the rye which i read half of many years ago but i can't remember that much about it. i'm very into it  so far. also in my basement i found this book called roman life that's all about ancient roman civilization and like THAT IS MY SHIT it's so interesting. I loaned off my mythology book to Mary because she wanted to read some norse myths (which i actually don't care for but to each her own). i still haven't finished kafka on the shore but i'm nearing the end and i'm so confused and i love it. in latin class we've been reading tales of the house of cadmus, and today we finally got to oedipus rex and i swear that story gets more and more fucked up each time i read it i swear. 

goodnight x

too good for you.